Let's get real here for a moment.
Six years ago my husband purchased a camera for me. It was right before the birth of our daughter, Olivia. I was inspired by two things. One, a friend who already owned a fancy camera, and two, mothers who shared awesome pictures of their babies on message boards. I knew I could do that too! So I did.
Fast forward six years and I find myself just as passionate about photography as I did back then. But there's one problem that I did not account for in 2010.
When I started to take pictures of families for profit I had no idea what that would mean. I had no idea how hard it would be to run a business. And I especially had no idea how tough it is to start from the beginning because my husband's job has moved us many times.
So here I am once again, like every other slow season, questioning what I'm doing. In your mind, a slow season may be cold winter months or hot summer months.. not here. In my world, that means I'm waiting 2-3 seasons to book a session. It means there is no profit. It means that any outsider would laugh hysterically at what I call a business. This just isn't working out guys.
Next month I'm turning 27. The past seven to eight years were spent being a wife and beginning the journey as a stay at home mom. I chose that lifestyle and I don't regret any part of it. I'm actually very thankful and feel incredibly loved.
But along the way I lost sight of who I am. You see, after the summer I will have two school-aged children, and to be honest, this transition is freaking me the hell out.
Yesterday I was told not to quit, yet. That there's something out there for me in the world of photography. I was also given the advice to stop placing myself in a tiny box of "the boring stay at home mom with no life". That's horrible, isn't it? That's what I think of myself. It creates an emptiness inside of me. Do you get that?
So for now, while I'm on this road to self-discovery, again, I'll think of this quote:
"Embrace the glorious mess that you are." - Elizabeth Gilbert