You know how they say "Fake it 'til you make it"? Well, I'm kind of bad at that. I can't lie. I can't trick people into believing something that is not the truth. To some, that might be part of being a business owner and I get that and I won't judge you for it. For me, it leaves a really crappy feeling and I'm just not okay with that. And maybe that's what has brought me here.
My business is not doing well.
Running my own photography business is my dream, guys. When I started portfolio building in England, things were going crazy good. But two years later, as things were picking up even more, my husband received orders and we were moved to North Dakota. That's when things started to not go so great. Not even two years later and we were relocated to Maryland.
My family and I have been here for three years in November and I hate that things didn't plan out like I had hoped.
This business means so much to me. Photographing families is where my heart is at. I'm a giver. I love that I'm able to share my love for photography with families. Parents get an outside look into their life. Their kids. Their family. It brings joy to parents but also to me.
Not only am I heartbroken that this feels like a failure, but I'm also heartbroken that I'm not able to contribute in a way that I've always wanted to. I want to help my family and not leave every bill, every trip, every activity for my husband to take care of.
I've come to accept the fact that I'm not a good business woman. But I am a good photographer and I believe in being honest and transparent in everything I do. In life and business.
Every day I think about where my photography is headed. I don't want to give up what I've worked on for so long. What I've grown to love so deeply. You can't toss something like that to the side and not look back. I've tried. More than once.
If you're reading this, thank you. If you've booked a session with me, thank you! Your support is what keeps me going. If you're reading this and thinking 'Wow. She's crazy', I get it.
One last thing. Even though I'm feeling so down, I want to reach out to YOU. I want to photograph YOU! Real life. You and your babies as you prepare to get ready for the day - in your home. Let me follow you around while you go about your daily routine of snuggling, taking walks, eating lunch - real life. But maybe that's not your thing. Maybe, you dream of pictures of YOUR parents. Holding hands, conversations over coffee, and seeing them as they move around the home you grew up in. All those details that bring back such beautiful memories.
Thank you for reading and understanding.
Reach out, because I want to work with you.