Motherhood to me is sometimes losing your patience, or getting frustrated, or when your angry mom voice comes out, but still having these little people who love you unconditionally no matter what. They don't care if your angry mom voice came out that day, they forgive you with no questions asked. Heck, they probably don't even remember it by the end of the day. THAT is incredible to me. I think we could learn a lot about forgiveness from our children.
I've enjoyed every single second of you being my little sidekick. And when I say "sidekick" I really mean you've been my sidekick, since the day you were born. I went out to lunch with my friends? You came with. I went to the mall? You came with. I stepped outside because I thought I needed a breather from you? You came with. I could go on forever listing all the times I dragged you along with me anywhere I went. And it's not because I had to, it's not because I didn't have a "sitter", it's because I wanted you there with me. You were/are my best friend and I mean that with every fiber of my being. I just love you, and I love having you with me always.
I promise that will never change.
"Being a mom is my jam."
I love the bond you two share already. You can tell just how much you guys love each other within seconds of interaction. The smartest thing I ever did was give you guys each other.
Leighton: "A fwiendship bracelet is when you pwomise to be best fwiends forever!"
Me: "And who's your best friend?"
Leighton: "You are!"
Sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday that I gave birth to you and other times it feels like forever ago. Thinking about life before you just doesn't make sense. I can't even believe I lived so long without you in my arms. but I'm so happy you're here now. Thank you for being the most perfect amazing beautiful fun sweet cuddly little baby boy I could ever ask for.
Family is something that's always been important to me, but even more so since having my own. I could think of a thousand different things I could be doing with my life right now, but NOTHING beats this right here.
You changed me. I haven't been the same person since the day you were born. I no longer could put my own needs before everybody else, but instead I had to put YOURS before mine. And believe it or not, it wasn't difficult to do that. You made it so easy and I couldn't imagine NOT doing that.
Thank you for coming into my life when you did. Some people might not have understoodat the time, but I always knew it was going to be the best thing to ever happen to me.
I never want to forget the way you make up songs and perform them for us. They usually go something like this,
"I love mommy, and I love daddy, and I love bubby. Dey are my best fwiends and my family!"
You're our best friend too, sweet pea.
"My hope is that they will remember that mommy tried. Even when she was tired, even when she was stressed. I hope they will know that I did it all for them. That I had every intention of being great, good, and grand, but that some days all I could be was okay."